Long time no see, everyone. It's me, of course. I wanted to come here today to talk about a desire to revert back to those messy, trashy girls you saw in the 2000s and 2010s--especially on Tumblr and Pinterest. Something about this lifestyle is aligning with my spirit, which I guess is good since it'll be summer, arguably the best time for this kind of behavior.
I should also note this not normal activity for me. I am someone who is typically reserved, would rather stay home on the weekends. But now the fact is things are finally going to be available to me. I can engage with the city in ways I was never able to: through bars and clubs.
This lifestyle always had some kind of charm. A girl who is barely able to pay her rent somehow also is magically able to get into the best clubs in her big city. Yeah, that would be the dream life but is that even realistic? I'll give you the short answer and say no, it's not.
I think a lot of my influences right now obtain that untouchable party vibe that I so desperately want to copy.
Speaking of, right now I love Ca7riel and Paco Amoroso, Charli XCX, Sophie and this one Jane Remover song. All of my influences are music right now--I just feel like I am hitting the jackpot!! I love when I go through new music phases in my life.
I wish I was reading more--messy girls still read--but I've just been so busy with everything else. It's been tough for me to balance work and play recently, but I think it's just because there are so many moving facets of my life: school, friends, extracurriculars, and I still feel like I'm not doing enough for myself. It's easy to get lost in the stress of feeling not good enough, but I'm trying to be kinder to myself this time around when it comes to school.
My mood has been extremely creative lately, but I feel like I'm not even creating anything. Sometimes my creativity converts into productivity when I wish it wouldn't. Sometimes I feel like I don't have a creative bone in my body, like I'm just meant to compute equations into a computer. I'm glad that's not what I feel right now.
I want to find ways to revamp this blog, but I guess before I do that, maybe I should start posting regularly on here, right?
It seems like we got completely lost off track and I gave you a life update instead of talking about my summer plans. School is out in almost three weeks you know? That's so weird to think about, I feel like this semester just started!
Summer is going to be dirty, messy, trashy, whatever you want to call it, but I'm telling you right now. I'm tired of all of these clean girl aesthetics, I want the messy girls to rise up! I'm waiting for you, let's march together. That's all I got for now, see you next time!
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