I can usually have about three bad days in a row before I start to get worried about myself. A bad day can be categorized by a few things:
1. I barely got any sleep the night before, and it's obviously affecting my mind and body.
2. There's something on my mind from the night before and it's unfortunately carried over into the next day, still weighing on me.
3. I'm fighting with my parents (or someone else important in my life.)
4. I feel lonely and isolate myself for the whole day.
5. I spend the whole day on my phone.
I might be a person with a low baseline happiness -- I don't require a lot to be content. But I think that also interferes with my ability to connect with others on a deeper level. Sometimes it's pretty obvious too. My other friends just treat each other differently, and it's because I'm the problem. I'm reserved around a lot of people, even my family most of the time. When there is nothing to say, I don't say it. Recently, I think these traits are really coming back to bite me in the ass. But that's kinda just me, I don't know what else to do about that. Authenticity is more valuable than false niceties.
Anyway, I've had about five bad-to-neutral days in a row, and I'm just wanting to complain about it. I don't complain out loud a lot, so allow me to make space for it here.
A critical social aspect of me is lost and I don't know where I dropped it.
Next time I won't be as gloomy and wallowing as I am today, but until next time, cheers.