meet me in the bathroom: my thoughts and hopes for the indie rock music scene

Two Christmases ago I asked for a book. This is not my usual behavior, if you know me, as I usually have a list filled anything that would involve using my brain academically in any manner. But, this book particularly piqued my interested because it involved one of my favorite things ever: music. Better than that, it also involved a group of musicians I adored (and also later learned to adore because of the book!)

So, I am here to offer my thoughts on the book overall, and what it did for Rock and Roll representation in America moving forward. 

The book opens with some smaller New York bands that I've never heard of, like Jonathan Fire*Eater. Early passages of the book include some of the grimier details behind the music scene in the late 90s/early 00s, like hard drug usage. 

Here is list of just a few of the musicians mentioned/interviewed in the book:

So, if you're into any of those artists, I strongly recommend checking out this book! It's really interesting to see the artists' perspective of their situation, how they handled (or didn't) their success and the behind the scenes of creating these influential pieces of music. 

What really popularized rock music was simply the age demographic who was putting money into these bands -- the dotcom boom erupted and allowed young people to get their hands on obscene amounts of money. With nothing to spend it on, they were giving their friends money and eventually correlated to those funds being put into the New York Music Scene.

This was great for those who needed it, but when the dotcom bubble finally burst, it left people stranded: those who dropped out of school or quit their jobs to focus on side projects were now forced to return to the corporate hell they desperately sought to escape. 

The beginnings of this book show a lot of parallels to our world now: young people are worried about the security of our future, job prospects aren't looking great and the world around us seems like it's only getting worse by the day. All that is communicated to us now is that our country (the U.S.) is more divided now than ever, and how we are the ones that are destined to fix it. Truthfully, it's exhausting.

Basically the entire time I was reading the book, I couldn't help but feel like art, especially art in forms of physical creation, is expiring in front of our eyes. No one has time to create anymore because we are all too focus on making ends meet or figuring out where the next meal is coming from. 

Also, I have a slightly unpopular side tangent: smoking culture needs a revival. This might be a shallow take, and I want to develop this even further, but I feel like the conversations, thoughts and ideas that come from those who have time to take a moment and reflect...which can be done in the span of time it takes to smoke a cigarette. 

On top of this, no one is staying up late maniacally smoking and creating art because there are more addictive things to be doing, like scrolling on your phone. It's hard to break this cycle when there are so many distractions going on at the same time. 

Moving back to the book, Lizzy Goodman, the author, does a fabulous job of communicating the glamour that comes with the lifestyle of rock and roll musicians while simultaneously showing the horrors that counteract: drug addiction and irreparable conflicts with the people closest to you are just scraping the top of the iceberg that the novel dives into. 

It makes you have FOMO for a time period; you had to be there to enjoy it. 

In current music trends, I can see an attempt to bring this sort of spirit back into underground music, and needless to say, I am thrilled. Our culture has seen a significant shift to structure and security, and while I obviously don't think it's necessarily bad for that shift to occur, I still think we are losing some carefree, fuck-it energy that the 2000s had.

Not to say that all is lost, though. Big cities are doing their heavy-lifting, hosting shows with smaller artists, but smaller cities, like the one I'm currently in, need to see a revival as well. There's a sense of community that comes together when a group of people is united through live music, and I want to be a part of it! 

Anyway, I don't think I can talk anymore about the book because I want you to read it if you're interested. That's all I have to say for now, until next time, cheers! 

little video

 I made a small video for a class I'm in, but I quite like it and I want to share it here too! The song is Duk Koo Kim by Sun Kil Moon, one of my favorite songs of all time! I hope you like it. 



new year same life

 Hello all, it's been so long since I've last seen you! I thought I would engage with this blog a bit more over my winter break, but honestly, I was just not motivated at all! 

I had a pretty rough winter break in terms of my family, someone close to me has passed and I think it's the first time I've really truly struggled with a loss. I had another relative die, but I was too mentally young to process it. 

I returned back to my college town and was greeted with the same bitter cold I reluctantly abandoned about a month ago. It's not even that I missed it, but that I longed for it when the southern air became too thick with salty ocean air for my tired lungs.

Something takes it out of me when I go home to southern California. I feel like I become a completely different version of myself, slipping away from my grounded soul in northern California.

The funny thing is, too, is that I don't even necessarily love northern California or what is in it. I simply long for the life I have built on my own the the constituents who take part in it. I miss my friends. I miss my apartment which houses those friends when I want to have a party. I miss the city that takes place in. 

Even though I haven't done much since I returned, there is a particular weight that gets lifted up from my chest when I am away from my previous life. Like I have no responsibility, like I don't owe anyone anything. 

School feels like a drag this semester. I don't feel like I am going to love my classes like I did last semester, and that's ok. It just makes my miniscule motivation levels dwindle even more. There's even a class I have that only allows two (2) absences for the whole semester! This is horrible news for someone like me, who loves to miss out on a class every once in a while (at least five times per semester).

It truly isn't a problem for me, though. I can still keep up with the class while not necessarily taking part in the in-person events of it. I don't think that will pass as an explanation to my professors, but it's worth pleading a case to you. 

Other than school, the only thing consuming my life right now is reality television! This is so funny for someone like me, because I never watched reality TV until this year. The show that got me hooked was none other than The Traitors, a Peacock original. 

If you don't know the plot of the show, essentially a bunch of reality TV (and other famous adjacent people) gather in a mansion in the Scottish countryside, hosted by Alan Cumming, and they all must indulge in a murderous survival game. A grand prize is earned throughout the show through missions, and the contestants must figure out who the traitors are if they want to win the prize. It's truly such a good premise, and people are willing to get nasty with each other it's really shocking.

My friends and I watched season three in less than five days. We just loved all of the people they had on: Dylan Efron (yes), BOSTON ROB!!, Bob the Drag Queen, etc.  All of them were just fabulous in the show. 

Don't even get me started on the cast of season four...ROB RAUSCH, Lisa Rinna, Tara Lipinski?! I can't wait to catch up with the season. 

Reality TV makes me feel like I learn about people's thought processes. I see their decisions being made based on relationships they have and the ones they don't. I'd like to believe my empathy grows with each episode I consume, even if that isn't entirely true. 

This year I feel a lot of change is going to spring up in my life. I'm excited, but I'm also nervous. I want to see what the world is going to offer me, and I plan on accepting it with an open embrace. 

Obviously my intentions remain pure to upload more on this blog, but I don't want to stay too firm in case I break my promise yet again. Until next time, cheers!