outfit evolution

Hi.

I've been thinking a lot about my fashion choices, primarily because seasons are changing, and it's starting to become my favorite time of year for fashion. I am a fan of layering in an outfit, and when it becomes too hot, basically all opportunity for that melts away with the snow. 

Fashion has always been a part of my life. I liked to dress up, wear my nana's old opera costumes and prance around the house like a celebrity. Even when I was a strange middle schooler I still thought I had fashion sense (I promise that I absolutely didn't, you'll see in these photos). And today, I think I am pretty proud of the way I choose to express myself. 

Today I thought I would take you on my journey through aesthetics, countless thrifted tops and interesting haircuts. 

Starting off strong with one of my FAVORITE outfits in middle school. I think this was in seventh grade, and I had just gotten this top at old navy to replace one that I had in a different pattern. 

These shorts were from Nordstrom and my grandma had bought them for me as a birthday present. I thought I was such a cool girl because they were from Nordstrom, I don't think I ever gotten anything from there unless she bought it for me. 

I loved my white Converse high-top shoes, so much to the point they started to turn yellow after only a year of having them. 

This photo was taken on my beloved iPhone 5S, I still miss her everyday.

You guys...I really thought this was so aesthetic. I remember taking this and thinking it was going to go viral on Tumblr because of the shirt I was wearing...obviously it didn't. 

I really loved this shirt for some reason. I got it from an online order, but they accidentally sent it to me, so I just kept it. Long sleeve shirts were my absolute favorite during my sophomore year in high school, I have no idea why. It was never really cold where I lived (San Diego), so there was really no need to wear it. 

These shorts were so cute to me because they weren't super tight. They were one of my first H&M purchases -- a store where I thought cool girls shopped -- and I remember my mom thinking they were way too short. 

Uh-oh...heading into 2020 is moving into uncharted waters. This was really when I started trying out other aesthetics that were super trendy on TikTok and Instagram. Although at this point in time I still didn't have Instagram. 

I loved drinking Americanos from Starbucks for some reason -- I literally don't even like the flavor of their espresso on its own -- and I would add a sweetener for some reason. It did not taste good. 

I bought these jeans from an online store based in Asia and I was so worried they weren't going to fit. To my surprise they did, but as soon as I dried them they shrunk about three inches and I couldn't wear them again because they looked ridiculous. 

 I LOVED this cardigan, and I think I got it at the swap meet with my Dad. It had little details of flowers in light brown, and it was super warm. I lost it almost two months after I bought it.

Really starting to kick it into e-girl territory here. I dyed my hair this ridiculous teal color, and it basically stayed permanent in my head for about eight months, until I paid a hair stylist a ridiculous amount of money to get it out of my scalp. 

This shirt was from my dad, who loved Alice in Chains but hated this shirt for some reason. I loved wearing legwarmers with any outfit I possibly could and obviously this was no exception. 

This skirt was something I held onto from middle school. I bought it at Tilly's, which was another store I thought cool girls shopped at. 

These shoes were one of my proudest purchases from Poshmark. They were these darling platform loafer things that had such a thick heel. I thought they were so sassy. One day when I wore them to school, as I was walking to class the sole of one them completely snapped off, and I was unable to repair them. I miss them dearly.

Here's another outfit from 2021, with the hair dye still present and haunting me. This is when we first adopted one of our dogs, Rigby. 

I bought this floral skirt from Old Navy, one of the few places my Mom and I liked to go shopping together (although I must admit I haven't been in the past few years). 

The tank top was just something that was old and in my mom's closet I knew she wouldn't miss if I took. 

I thought this was so incredibly chic and "cottagecore" of me --- looking back at it now I'm not too sure if that's true. 

Doing things like this are so much fun to me, because I think there are little pieces of each moment that contribute to the outfits I still wear today, which is where we are headed next.

DISCLAIMER: I'm picking this back up after taking a few months off. I think even since I started drafting this post my personal style has already evolved into a different vision than what I thought I wanted in November.  Now, we get to move into my favorite part, showing you some of the outfits I've actually wearing recently, because I feel like it's only right for you to see this part of myself that I am particularly proud of. 

Here's an outfit I wore just a few weeks ago: as you can see, there are multiple layers to this outfit that make it seem a little more elevated. Underneath the jacket, I have a layered long sleeve and short sleeve top. 

I also added white tights to contrast the darkness of my skirt and boots combination, and I think it balances the outfit extremely well! I felt very confident walking around in this. 

As you can see, I love taking outfit photos in this mirror. This is essentially a variant of the first outfit, but I wanted to show that there can be a sort of "equation" when it comes to making a nice balanced outfit. You can reuse the same techniques while also adding a touch of uniqueness to it, completely changing the aesthetic of the outfit. 

In this outfit, using a hooded cardigan for the top layering piece gives off a different vibe than the sports jacket I wore i the picture above. These outfits also share a similar color scheme-- actually, most of my closet does honestly-- but it doesn't necessarily matter unless that is the focus you are going for. 

Color is not the first thing that comes into my mind when I am building an outfit in the morning, however, I would like to change that. 

I feel that color is extremely underrated when it comes to outfit creation. Especially right now, a lot of trending aesthetics revolve around the neutral base of navy, black, white and gray. Yes, I fall victim to this trap, but at least I'm aware! So, as a personal goal, I want to make more of an effort to add more color into my outfits in the year of 2026!

Finally, one of my last outfits is one that I wore at least weekly last semester. I simply adore this dress that I thrifted from my hometown store almost five years ago. 

In fact, it's really not even a dress, but definitely an old woman's nightgown, because unless I pin it in the back, it's quite possibly the most shapeless thing I own. Needless to say, it's not flattering unless I pin it, which also means there is usually a bunch of fabric on my back, so I pair it with a jacket. 

Since I wore this green zip-up (which is just another piece of clothing I'm obsessed with for some reason), I decided to wear a dark green tight underneath the dress so it would match the rest. My school bag is also green so this was a major win for me. 

I would like to proudly add that maybe 90% of my closet comes from thrift stores, friends or my mom, which also means sometimes they do not fit the best, and that is ok. 

Alright, well that just about wraps up this post. I really do love posting outfit photos and talking about my thought process, so maybe I will continue this and turn it into a "mini series" of sorts. But who knows, there are lots of things to consider. Until next time, cheers! 

meet me in the bathroom: my thoughts and hopes for the indie rock music scene

Two Christmases ago I asked for a book. This is not my usual behavior, if you know me, as I usually have a list filled anything that would involve using my brain academically in any manner. But, this book particularly piqued my interested because it involved one of my favorite things ever: music. Better than that, it also involved a group of musicians I adored (and also later learned to adore because of the book!)

So, I am here to offer my thoughts on the book overall, and what it did for Rock and Roll representation in America moving forward. 

The book opens with some smaller New York bands that I've never heard of, like Jonathan Fire*Eater. Early passages of the book include some of the grimier details behind the music scene in the late 90s/early 00s, like hard drug usage. 

Here is list of just a few of the musicians mentioned/interviewed in the book:

• LCD Soundsystem
• The Strokes
• Yeah Yeah Yeahs
• The Killers
• Regina Spektor
• Vampire Weekend
• Interpol
• The Rapture
• The White Stripes
• TV on the Radio
• ...and so many more

So, if you're into any of those artists, I strongly recommend checking out this book! It's really interesting to see the artists' perspective of their situation, how they handled (or didn't) their success and the behind the scenes of creating these influential pieces of music. 

What really popularized rock music was simply the age demographic who was putting money into these bands -- the dotcom boom erupted and allowed young people to get their hands on obscene amounts of money. With nothing to spend it on, they were giving their friends money and eventually correlated to those funds being put into the New York Music Scene.

This was great for those who needed it, but when the dotcom bubble finally burst, it left people stranded: those who dropped out of school or quit their jobs to focus on side projects were now forced to return to the corporate hell they desperately sought to escape. 

The beginnings of this book show a lot of parallels to our world now: young people are worried about the security of our future, job prospects aren't looking great and the world around us seems like it's only getting worse by the day. All that is communicated to us now is that our country (the U.S.) is more divided now than ever, and how we are the ones that are destined to fix it. Truthfully, it's exhausting.

Basically the entire time I was reading the book, I couldn't help but feel like art, especially art in forms of physical creation, is expiring in front of our eyes. No one has time to create anymore because we are all too focus on making ends meet or figuring out where the next meal is coming from. 

Also, I have a slightly unpopular side tangent: smoking culture needs a revival. This might be a shallow take, and I want to develop this even further, but I feel like the conversations, thoughts and ideas that come from those who have time to take a moment and reflect...which can be done in the span of time it takes to smoke a cigarette. 

On top of this, no one is staying up late maniacally smoking and creating art because there are more addictive things to be doing, like scrolling on your phone. It's hard to break this cycle when there are so many distractions going on at the same time. 

Moving back to the book, Lizzy Goodman, the author, does a fabulous job of communicating the glamour that comes with the lifestyle of rock and roll musicians while simultaneously showing the horrors that counteract: drug addiction and irreparable conflicts with the people closest to you are just scraping the top of the iceberg that the novel dives into. 

It makes you have FOMO for a time period; you had to be there to enjoy it. 

In current music trends, I can see an attempt to bring this sort of spirit back into underground music, and needless to say, I am thrilled. Our culture has seen a significant shift to structure and security, and while I obviously don't think it's necessarily bad for that shift to occur, I still think we are losing some carefree, fuck-it energy that the 2000s had.

Not to say that all is lost, though. Big cities are doing their heavy-lifting, hosting shows with smaller artists, but smaller cities, like the one I'm currently in, need to see a revival as well. There's a sense of community that comes together when a group of people is united through live music, and I want to be a part of it! 

Anyway, I don't think I can talk anymore about the book because I want you to read it if you're interested. That's all I have to say for now, until next time, cheers! 

little video

 I made a small video for a class I'm in, but I quite like it and I want to share it here too! The song is Duk Koo Kim by Sun Kil Moon, one of my favorite songs of all time! I hope you like it.